Thoughts of me this day!!

"thoughts of me this day "

You can close your eyes to the things you

don't want to see but you cannot close your

heart to the things you don't want to feel....

-tiwin-

A Missing Bloke

A Missing Bloke
by tiwin
dedicated to k.l.p

I missed a bloke I had on hand;

I longed him as much as I could

I missed a bloke who took care of me

For when I am with him I can be happy as I could be.

A bloke can be loved as he wanted too;

You can loved him as no If's and doubts

for he deserved to be loved by anyone.

A bloke whom I missed and love is "YOU";

Don't question me why? what? or How?

For Loving you is no reason to explain at ALL!!

Missing you is a word and thought that strengthen me.

June '08

-tiwin-

Falling In Love

FALLING IN LOVE

From the book "Letters To My Son"

Kent Nerburn, Author

It is a mystery why we fall in love. It is a mystery how ithappens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery whysome love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails.

You can analyze this mystery and look for reasons andcauses, but you will never do anymore that take the life outof the experience. Just as life itself is more than the sum ofthe bones and muscles and electrical impulses in the body,love is more than the sum of the interests and attractionsand commonalities that two people share. And just as lifeitself is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so too, thecoming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gift thatcannot be questioned in its ways.

Sometimes, hopefully at least once in your life - the gift oflove will come to you in full flower. Take hold of it andcelebrate it in all inexpressible beauty. This is the dream weall share. More often, it will come and take hold of you,celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.

When this happen to young people, they too often try tograsp the love and hold it to them, refusing to see that it is agift that just as freely, moves away. When they fall out oflove, or the person they love feels the spirit of love leaving,they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost ratherthan accepting the gift for what it was, then moving on.

They want answers where there are no answers. Theywant to know what is wrong in them that makes the otherperson no longer love them, or try to get their love to change,thinking that if some small things were different, love wouldbloom again. They blame their circumstances and say that ifthey go far away and start a new life, their love will grow.

They try anything to give meaning to what has happened. Butthere is no meaning beyond the love itself, and until theyaccept its own mysterious ways, they live in a sea of misery.You need to know this about love, and accept it. You need totreat what it brings you with kindness.

If you find yourself inlove with someone who does not love you, be gentle withyourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn'tchoose to rest in the other person's heart.If you find yourself someone in love with you but you don'tlove him back, feel honored that love came and called at yourdoor, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do nottake advantage; do not cause pain. How you deal with loveis how you deal with yourself.

All our hearts feel the samepains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different.If you fall in love with another, and he falls in love with you,and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it nor toassess blame. Let it go. There is a reason and there is ameaning. You will know in time.

Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you. Allyou can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing,then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the personwho brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem itpoor in spirit. Give it to the world around you Iin any way you can.There is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so longwithout love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, andthey begin to look at love as something that flows to themrather than from them.

The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but astheir love cools, they revert to seeing their love as a need.They cease to be someone who generates love and insteadbecome someone who seeks love. They forget that thesecret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made togrow only by giving it away.Remember this and keep it to your heart.

Love has its time, itsown season, its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying. You canonly embrace it when it arrives and give it away when itcomes to you. But if it chooses to leave from your heart orfrom the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do. Love always has been and always will be a mystery.

BE GLAD THAT IT CAME TO LIVE FOR A MOMENT IN YOUR LIFE.

If you keep you heart open, it will come again...

Love Stories: I refuse to

I refuse to wait for you any longer. There was a time in my life when I would have saved myself for you alone. In my heart no one else would do. I belonged to no one else but you. That isn’t me anymore. My heart finally caught up with my brain and I finally saw that all of it was just nothing but fantasies. Dreams that only I wanted. There was no hope left for us. As each day passed, it became clearer to me that it was never meant to be. We were never meant to be.

I refuse to live in the past. What we shared lives in the past, it doesn’t control me any longer. Don’t get me wrong, I will forever treasure it but I won’t let it hold me back. I won’t let it ruin who I was and who I am now. For a time, I almost forgot who I was without you. I’ll never let that happen again. I won’t ever lose myself again.

I refuse to fight anymore. For several months now, I’ve been fighting. I’ve been fighting for our friendship and for us. However, no matter what I do, I seem to be losing. Whenever I feel as if I’m going to buckle down because of the pressure, the thought that somehow maybe you are fighting for us too kept me going. But months have passed, I haven’t heard from you. Somehow I finally realized that I was the only one fighting for us. I was doing everything I could possibly can for someone who was and never will be mine.

I refuse to believe that you didn’t love me. Somehow, someway, I know that I have a place in your heart. You may not have been able to love me the way I wanted you to love me but I know that even for just a second, you really did love me.

I refuse to lose hope. It may not be you. It may take me forever to find him, but I will. Tears have been streaming down my cheeks for too long but not anymore. I have learned so many things from all this. Things that I felt should have been taught to me some other less painful way but somehow I don’t regret it. It made me stronger. It made me look inside myself and really see who I really am and not who I thought I was. Hope kept me going. The hope for better things to come, the same hope that one day I will finally be over you.

Not your ordinary love story...

Not your ordinary love story...
Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Love Struck! This is not your typical story!

This is dedicated to you.

Getting to know you

You will hate me for doing this and I could never say this in front of you so I wrote it down.

I really liked you, your smart, funny, easy going, submissive and assertive in the right way, very beautiful and

a very responsible person, Never in my life have I met someone like you and never in my life have I cared for

someone like this, I know I’m still young and still got lots of things to learn in this world, lots of people to meet

but I have no regrets for trying my very best to make you believe I really care. I now know this is not just

something in my mind but also in my heart. I am willing to bet all my all to make this work. I know we hardly

knew each other and I am willing to know more on who you are if you give me a chance.

I started off in the wrong side and I wish to make it right.

Whatever your decision may be I’ll respect it and I wish to stay close to your heart or as your best friend.

Thanks for giving me this time.

"Dili sayop ang ma amang sa atubangan sa babae nga imong g ka ibgan…" –LJV

Risking it all

I thought about this for one night, my heart and my mind made a decision to trust you 100 percent. Gambling

may not be good but in order to find the right one is to bet, hope and pray that you’ll win.

Self Sacrifice

The self sacrifices I made where not meant to be paid. Knowing your safe, seeing you smile and knowing you

love me is already priceless to me. I trust you, you trust me.

I love you and you love me.