TYPHOON ONDOY - September '09

An Experience wrote by my cousin....


Dear All,

What a disastrous and unforgettable experience I have yesterday during the typhoon Ondoy.Pag-asa said we are only signal no.1 but it rained so hard which is already equivalent to 1 month of rainfall.

The night before that, Sept. 25,2009 we were in Araneta to attend the last day wake of a friend's relative and even went home before 12:00 MN. It was not even raining that hard but pouring continuosly. Early 8:30 am of Sept 26,2009 I went to work due to backlog loads and it was not even raining so hard. Around 9:00 am the skies are colored black already and the wind is so strong as seen from our windows in the 16th floor. Little by little the water in the streets went higher and higher until it reached waist level. One step more it will already go inside our building lobby and if it happens they are going to shut off all the elevators already. Feeling ko parang titanic na...noh ba yan!..... Around 1:45 pm inspite the continous downpour of rain me and my officemate decided to go home inspite all circumstances we will encounter along the way. Suicide na kami. If we will stay put the more we cant go home.

We went down the basement and passed at the side of our building which the water is only knee high. We walked from Makati Med till Reposo near Jupiter and St.Andrews church going kina Paling. ( my cousin ). We were able to ride a taxi from there but stopped at the foot bridge of Makati Mandaluyong bridge because down there the way is not passable. Walking through we saw that Ilog Pasig already overflowed.Ngeee! Walking our way down, I am hesitant to take the last step na. Many are walking in the rain and no choice... need ko lumusong. The water is dirty and cold. I was thinking mas malinis pa yata ang tubig pag bumaha dun sa atin. Wala na.....have to walk through. I've been making calls and texts to Rodel, some friends and officemates of our experience...even told them not to pass by here and better stay put in the office and be safe. At first it's only knee high until it reached waist level na...I've been walking in the center barefooted with my friends with all the sand and stones pricking our soles. Kawawa naman ako! I already wanted to cry because of the the situation we are here.Barangka area we were able to ride a tricycle to Sambahayan ...tired, sighing and soaking wet! Grabe....... i arrived after 4pm home and directly go to wash up. Have been calling my staff in the office,relatives and friends to check on them also. Brown out! Our means of updating ourselves with the situation is only thru radio. We cant sleep also and pinakikiramdaman ang paligid kasi bumaha din dito sa condo. In fact, Leo's house was flooded. Good Rodel was home and no work kaya he was the one looking and watching the condition here sa condo . We have lights around 12:00MN and we still managed to watch TV to update ourselves.

On the other hand, the house in Marikina was flooded. Annie, Papa and the 4 kids were all alone there and the water reached till shoulder level inside the house. Lahat ng gamit sa baba was destroyed. The ref is floating and all other things inside the house. The owner was totally submerged and some of their neighbora and relatives stayed with them sa second floor ng house. Though they're okey na we still dont know what will happen next. All roads going to their area is not passable till today.Hay......

Now, I realized that life is so short. In a glimpse when God calls you.. you cant do anything! No paalams...nothing whatsover! Good we are all safe inspite of what happened.
God bless and always stay safe. ALWAYS PRAY FOR GUIDANCE AND SAFETY.

God bless and best regards,
Neneng ( Len )

Dog can always be a Man's "best friend"

In so many ways a dog can be a man's best friend;

Dogs have true loyalty and unconditional love than a man.

They absorb mans sickness and sensitive enough to what we feel;

they will be there all the time, to protect us in any trouble may come.

Imagine coming home from a stressful day at work and being greeted by your

four-legged companion tail wagging. Your stress and tension evaporating away

as your dog snuggle up to you.

Would it be nice if we treat our dogs as natural or real man as we could.

Owning a dog is how you treated a real person as your friend.

Take care of your dog's health, handle dog behavior problems and food intakes.

How you take care of your dogs affects of who or what the person you are inside and out.

Other way around they will protect you in return as what you treated them though.

Love your dogs.....

-tiwin-

Create Your Own Dreams

Dreams can come true if you take the time to

think about what you want in life.

Get to know yourself

Find out who you are

Choose your goals carefully

Be honest with yourself

Always believe in yourself.

Find many interests and pursue them

Find out what is important to you

Find out what you are good at

Don't be afraid to make mistakes

Work hard to achieve successes

When things are not going right

don't give up - just try harder

Give yourself freedom to try out new things.

Laugh and have a good time

Open yourself up to love

Take part in the beauty of nature

Be appreciative of all that you have 

Help those less fortunate than you

Work towards peace in the world

Live life to the fullest

Create your own dreams and follow 

them until they are a reality..

- by S.P.S.-

Career Change ...

It came to a point in my life that I realized the things

which i need to grow in some ways.

I begin to seek for something else

that I'm not used to do.

For a long years, I've waited,

things never changed as I wanted to.

Opportunity came and I grab it,

I realized things can be possible

if you really want it to happen.

I challenge myself to do something else

to prove and give a learning.

Learning can be a tool for me

to give myself a growth that I longed

for quite sometime.

This could not be for anybody else

I decide and risk things knowing

this is for my own benefit.

Hope Il be guided on the field I choose.

Im happy of what I have now as I go far

on this journey..

-tiwin-

"Ang Lampara"

Light is the most needed

and the most useful to our daily lives,

It helps us to describe and

determine some beautiful things around us.

We are grateful that in our times many kinds

of light being invented bulbs and fluorescent's

existence are the most common types we used.

What if at this very time we used

still the lamparilla(kerosene lamp),

Do you think that many establishment exist?

hahaha really it makes us freak!

That makes me wonder, why is it?

That in any place many lamp are posted

but the crime rate in any parts of our country grows every year....

Do you think that using of light

we can do such awful and disgusting disturbances?

Ha! for me its an abuse...

Abuse in a sense that light being

installed for us to be free from harm.

-TaTa- 3'09

Things I hate about ..

I hate the way you talk to me

and the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car

I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots

and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick.

It even makes me rhyme.

I hate it.

I hate the way you're always right.

I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you're not around and

the fact that you didn't call.

But mostly, I hated the way i don't hate you

not even close.

Not even a little bit not even at all..

I Miss...

I miss feeling appreciated and wanted.

I miss that little bit of comfort it gave me.

i needed someone, no one was there

i asked for help, and no one answered

i begged for forgiveness, no one cared

i screamed for attention, no one noticed

i cried for you, no one dried my tears...

Those who sweat themselves,

find (themselves) by *themselves*

I hate this, I've never felt worse in my life.

I need to talk to someone but no one would understand..

I'm feeling completely alone and it's not like

I have anyone to turn to anyway..

I guess I'm just at a point in my life

where I honestly don't know what to do with myself.

have yOu ever felt sO alOne that nOthinq

makez sense, well datz hOw i feel right nOw

i feel as if im facin everythinq by myself

with nOthinq but tearz 'nd a [ f a k e ] smile

-¦- Lonely & Confused -¦-

-¦- Abandoned & Used -¦-

No one can see inside of me *

No one can see how much I care *

Nobody sees the tears I cry *

No one is there to dry my eyes *

She falls apart by herself

No ones there to talk or understand

i`m - spiNning- out of c0ntr0L

th0ught you would be there

to let me know im not a l o n e

but in fact that`s exactly what i -was-

tiwin 3.14.09

Lonely as I ought to...

I soak up all the pain in »S.I.L.E.N.C.E«

Accepting the fact I have no one »L.E.F.T«

Give me a b0x 0f pushpins s0 everytime i cry

i can pin my l0nley picture t0 the wall

and fill my r0om with my pain and s0rr0ws until 0ne day,

when therez n0 r0om left, i'll pin them t0 where the pain

is really c0ming fr0m...my heart..

It's ironic how when you're lonely,

The whole world seems to be in love.

& it's those days you wish you had a boyfriend, to cuddle with.

hold hands. kiss. tell him everything.or,

just by looking at him and knowing you mean the

world to him and he loves you with all his heart. it`s

those days you have to wish for a fantasy to become

reality. i just want to be loved by someone.

I don't need to be wanted...

I just want to be needed...

Being lonely isn't the worst feeling;

it's being forgotten by

someone you can never forget.

She is lonely even though you can't tell
She is reaching out for what, she doesn't know

She will continue to sit in .s.i.l.e.n.c.e.

And hope that someone may stumble across her

and all of her .e.m.p.t.i.n.e.s.s.

But they only hope that they do it in time

Otherwise she will have .d.r.i.f.t.e.d. too far

letting go of whatever grasp of the world she has

As she slowly fades out of the lives of everyone

Nearly (.u.n.n.o.t.i.c.e.d.)

I don't wish to be everything to everyone,

but i would like to be something to someone.

Gotta use this lonely time

to change the picture in the frame of my mind

outside the window there's a sunny day

yet inside im praying that i will be okay

she thinks she has everyone on her side;

but when things get rough she looks around &

has never felt so alone

Did you think I would cry on the phone?

Do you know what it feels like being alone..

have you ever had that empty feeling inside of you...

like no one cares or loves you back feeling;

as if you would of c r i e d ..

no one would be there to wipe away the t e a r s

* --i`m ALONE in this world --

facing ALL my fears ..

with one FAKE smile ..

and a bunch of useless tears

Sometimes ... the only thing you find yourself

wishing for is for someone to be wishing for you.

The darkness is where i sit, I seem so far away,

Away from everyone else. My world seems to be falling

and there’s no one there to catch me.

I'm alone in this world with just the others

who understand what i'm going through..

It's a long [Road]
to face the world [Alone]

You might not notice, but i need a good friend

someone to talk to when I'm down..

there's so much on my mind that i want to get out

but there's no one around..

Well I can't ever really believe

No one was sent to get me

And I feel like I'm being erased

No one got left here.

sOmetimes I feel liKe i`m the last coOkie

in the jar all alone `Nd broken up x/3i`

M NOT ALONE.

just temporarily..

--» FORGOTTEN.

Barefoot living..

"To me, 'living barefoot' would be a confident state of mind

in knowing that I'm taking advantage of every day and

appreciating all that I have.

It would be noticing the small beauty, humor,

or irony in things as we go about our day.

So many people get caught up in the day-to-day life

that they often don't actually stop to look around and admire it.

For me, this would also include doing things that I love.

Whether it is within the work day or not,

I like to participate in things that I believe in,

are part of a creative process, and enjoy learning more about.

To truly live a life that is fulfilling and rewarding,

I think that you must examine what makes you happy and do it.

This is a simple concept, yet few actually put themselves

above other priorities in their lives, to make this happen."

"It's not Easy"

TO APOLOGIZE,

when you have hurt another person;

TO ADMIT ERROR,

when your reputation for honesty;

TO BE UNSELFISH,

when a little extra grab might enrich you;

TO BE CONSIDERATE,

when people get your nerves;

TO REMAIN HUMBLE,

when achievement tempts you to boast;

TO KEEP TRYING,

when many failures have tested your patience,

TO MAINTAIN COMPOSURE,

when temper is up;

TO FOLLOW HEAVEN'S PATH,

when others take shortcut;

but everyone will find that your adherence

to good character pay in the end...

Being in love...

From how many times that I trust in love,

For so many times I fall in love,

Some of them don't love,

I think I've been cast.

That no one can have my heart;

But I keep on searching for my destiny,

Although some of them don't want me.

I am not saying this for you to love me;

If friends we ever could be,

Just respect me.

If in case you don't want me as what I am,

I can be with someone and don't mind me,

I can set my heart free.

Even if it hurts me so bad,

That can crash my heart;

That is the meaning of being in love....

Tearing flag....

It is sad to know that our Philippine Flag is

gradually tearing apart;

It really describe the reality of what a

Country we have now;

You ought to....

-tiwin 2.8.09-

Missing place to unwind....

Summer time is coming,
I missed the place where I used to unwind,

To enjoy, to drink a shots of margarita mixed,

Taking photos in any angle of the sea and shore.

The tagay mode, the "libak ever",

the fun and the confession time.

Secrets revealed after drinking,

chikka to the max under the full moon.

Lying on the sand, tong-its and anything we can do for lingaw mode..

The laughter we shared really seemed to be memorable as it was.

Beaches can be a nice place to go for fun

and enjoyment for life to be treausured..

Dagat na sad ta...

Malapascua is a tentative plan to go this summer

watch out!!!

-tiwin 2.7.09-

Define pretending...

Define pretending…

saying you're ok, but you're not,
that you understand, but you didn't...

acting like you're busy,
but in reality you're lonely...

convincing people that you just wanna be friends,
but what you really want is more than friends...

when you know that he/she has somebody new,
you ack like it doesn't hurt when it really hurts so bad inside...

when you say its over,
but you know you still love him/her...

and when you say you can't relate with this message,
but then you really do.

HOPEFUL SORRY

HOPEFUL SORRY
inspired the movie “ALFIE”

Searching for the right one,

Ending with the total of none,

For the days gone by,

Happiness leave and die.

To all I wanna say sorry,

For I have done are so weary,

Under the velvet clouds,

Confusion blows, regretful foes.

Now I will face the truth,

Gone and put you in my thought,

To start the basic with goodness,

Endless whisper of hope will be my fortress.

-tAtA - jUn -2.1.09-

Diversion..

"Diversion"

- 1-26-09 - tiwin-

It came to a point in life;

Which diversion can help us deviate

things that cannot be handle anymore.

Sometimes we used to turn away from reality

and pretend things to be fine as we ought not.

An outgoing person used to be out with friends;

mingle with others to escape from what they are facing

and divert things into something else to feel them better

as they expect it to be.

Some of this is a diversion to keep our mind off

what is really going to get us.

It's just a resource from the things we don't want to dwell on.

As one person said, If you have problem don't divert it;

Face it with reality, Nose to nose

and accept it wholeheartedly; even in pain.

'Coz no matter how we hive off things,

Only ourselves can get rid of it.

A meeting place...

A meeting place...
*1/26/09 - tiwin*


A first time and a first place to met a person
where I never thought it was;
Is a place called "Home".

He exists in just a day
Who I never expect it to be;
He came along for nothing and
Unexpectedly, I risk something to met him.

In a moment of a day;
Stories were shared about me and him.
I ought to realized that he is a man
with full of responsibilities;
That anyone could admire him to be
what and who he is...

He can be a loner sometimes
but this never hinder him;
Life's go on as the way he handle it.

A smile on a face can be seen as you look at it;
He never expect it as he ought to.
Hopefully, things will happen gradually as we started
to get to know it.

Tis a place like "Home"
can be memorable with a person
who I never thought I met He was....

Deceiving smile…

Just because my eye don’t have tears doesn’t mean
My heart doesn’t cry…
And just because I come out strong doesn’t mean
There is nothing wrong..

Often, I choose to pretend I’m happy
So I don’t have to explain myself to people
Who’ll never understand…

Smili’n has always been easier
Than explaining why I’m sad…

-tiwin-

A sensational way to loose a friend…

1.30.09 by tiwin


I started a friendship with full of memories
That we can talk and share about…

Openness with in ourselves is shared;
Listening to each an everyone’s despair
And downfall may hear.
Understanding for any differences as
Typical friend it seem;
Closeness we became.

Until the moment clash;
As we never expect it to be.
Sometimes there are things
We need to give up for a “Friend”;

It’s so hurting to decide things as we know it
But if that’s the only way you can do to provide happiness;
In the long run, things will turn out fine in a positive side of it.

I’d rather consider things in any perspective,
I can be considerate as much as I want to for a friend;
I can be understandable to those who don’t understand me,
I can be respectable to the person who respects my individuality;
And yet I can be honest as much as I wish to,
But honesty sometimes sucks to protect the person you care about.

A feeling of regret to the things we’ve shared;
Not knowing in the end I’ll lose.
‘Tis I ought to will work for good but it wasn’t.

Dragging myself to many things
Just to deviate into right decision;
Yet unintentionally, I caused hindrance to someone’s WILL.

Selfish I am to this situation
But hopefully, this decision would let them understand
My intentions;

Concerned person as I thought
A friend would I consider
Letting you go as my friend is not an easy way for me to loose;
Still I’d rather choose to be away than facing the happiness
I found in you… Nonexistent friend to treasure!
Sorry for loosing you as my friend on this story…

On Pain and Suffering

Pain brings suffering and suffering brings pain.

It is a cycle that goes on and on.

No one in this world is free from pain nor from suffering.

Those people who claim that they can't feel any pain are "LIARS"

in the very essence of the word.

Pain is two-faced. Whichever face you get will depend on the choice you make,

on the strength of your will, on the goodness of your heart.

Pain is pain. You cannot run nor hide from it.

It will find you even in the darkest crevices;

Embrace pain, don't shun it.

Pain is beautiful only to those whose hearts are beautiful.

-tiwin 1.21.2009-

Smile radiates from with in...

When a girl builds walls around her,

its not because she avoids a man.

nor she protects herself..

She does it to find someone;

who would be man enough

to break those walls...

Just to be with her...

-1.20.09-

Sky Coaster Adventure.....

It's so risky to ride on this sky coaster adventure..

this will not apply to those who have fear in height specifically;

Sky experience adventure is some kind of a gamble,

life or ride, just dare with it..

No harness attached on your chest its just a metal buckle in it

that only machine can manipulate.

Scarry but exciting... its a place where you can shout out

the things you want to be shouted..

Its a nice experience try to tilt in a 55'degree you can feel the bit of your heart...

what a feeling... it can freeeze you in a minute... Tilt ...tilt..tilt..

-tiwin- 01.19.08

Being a "Friend"

You can always tell who a friend is....

Someone who may be as different from you as night is from day;

but who welcomes seeing life from your point of view.

Someone whose availability for you is not seen in

his being around all the time but in his

Willingness to drop everything when you need them most.

Someone who respect and enjoys your individuality

yet sticks around to remind you,

your accountability;

Above all, a friend is someone

who enters your world and changes it forever..

- tiwin 1.14.09 -

Enjoying my pain....

Start to breathe and fake a smile

It's all the same after a while

I know,that you are tired

Carrying the ones you lost

A picture frame with all the thoughts

I know, you hold inside

I hope that you can find your way back

To the place where you belong

-tiwin-