Rejection

Rejection
tiwin 10.3.08


I’m trapped to this world called “Rejection”.
Who cares?? Do I look like I care??

I know I’m not the person you are interested with
or wanted too and it never was.

I’m just the least person whom you can benefit with.
I’m just a mess; you can wipe as you wanted to;

I’m a waste; you can dump in the trash if you don’t need me.
I’m just a piece of scratch; you can throw anywhere you want.

You can push me or give me away to those in need.
I mean nothing to you still and not worthy to keep.

You ought to

You’ll be Happy now..

For the reason of pushing me away from you.
You taught me to realize that life is worth living with out you.

Even it’s hard to do but it gives me courage from the things you wanted to.
I haven’t heard any word from you but I assumed things to be that way.

So tiring to wait for your word “Stay” and its not worth waiting

coz I know I will hear nothing.

I was the one who loose the rope and I was.
Impatient as I am to describe but a loser who I became to this story.

The Blame I put on my hand don’t insists you are to be coz you are not.
This I will suffer and sacrifice for the sake of your happiness; You deserve to be.

Forgiveness will always be the key of your worth to be happy

and I do willing to suffer because of it.

You will be happy now…..

tiwin 10.3.08

"I Hated Myself as Fooled..."
tiwin 10.2.08

I’m selfish to impose my love to someone
Who doesn’t love me back.
I hated myself to feel that I loved, I missed and I cared;
B’coz the more I imposed that feeling the more I’m deeply hurting.

Being fooled with someone who I choose to love & care of
Is unfair...but it doesn’t give me the thought of quitting to love.

Shame on me for what I have done.
This is not an ordinary me as I knew myself but
Because I’m fooled, it realized me the things
Which wasn’t supposed to be;

Foolishness of me is an echo that keeps me deaf.
A bad dream that keeps me awake anytime I am asleep.
And always reminds me of what a "fool" I am.

If you try to close your eyes not to see things in the past
Still more sweet memories you will reminisce.
The only thing I can do is cry out the things
I wish to be forgotten…

Time chooses its own healingness of pain and despair
Which a man cannot afford to make it.

Never in my mind expect things to happen as I expected it to be.
The more I convince myself that I’m OK; Strong and Patient
The weaker I am in reality.

Will I ever learn you never love me?
When I love you this is I hate to remember.

To forgive is always an easy word to say I’m SORRY!!
But it’s hard to make up.
Apology accepted but doesn’t make me feel better anyway.

I’m tired of these Love or Life???
If tired of Love? It can be healed by Love.
If tired of Life? It’s a choice..
I choose to live or I better choose to Die….

Loving Someone...

Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the person we love we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many Beautiful things and simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns. Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you love but the man who loves you more.

The best lovers are those who are capable of loving from a distance, far enough to allow the other person to grow, but never too far to feel the love deep within your being to let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own HAPPINESS without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all fears, bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart.

Do not let the bitterness pare away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let you grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may have found peace in just loving someone from a distance not expecting anything in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.

There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just friendship, or the feelings he might have for u is just too far from how you love him. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.

You don't have to be bitter on love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well.

Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow: If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love. Cry, if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

"When you lose someone... and you think you were the one who loved most, between the two of you... he lost more. For someday you can love someone the way that you loved him...But he will never be loved again the way that you did"

Bearing the PAIN...

tiwin 10.1.08

It’s hard to ease the pain if you try to force it to stop.

Heavy to carry as you try to face it.

No choice but feel the pain until hurt no more.

Life is ironic and also life is unfair.. Either way..

It’s not easy to be in pain;

maybe its how I interpret the word pain is ..

It can be in a positive or negative perspective;

But still thankful to feel the pain you’ve caused.

It’s just hard for me to deal it as for now.

Let me bear the pain you’ve caused til the moment I surpass.