2008 Ends....

2008 Ends

As a synopsis of the year 2008 ended, I just want to say "Thank You" for everything that happened in my entire year.

I started my year 2008 as full of blessings, surprises, and challenges in life unexpectedly.

Thank you for all the pain and hearbreaks that I impatiently give up, for the strength to survive, let go and move on, for the courage to loose the rope knowing things is uncertain, for the humility to forgive to the person who I have sinned, for the love of family and friends, and for the faith and grace to trust again.

Thank you for the continued passion I gave to my job and career, for my officemates you are always my inspiration to keep me going no matter how tired I am;

For the blessings you have showered upon me to travel as an opportunity to explore and unwind.

Life experience this year 2008 is a memory to be treasured and cherished, I can't imagine how I go tru these things to be as memorable as it is.

The moment of loneliness, sadness and even in the time of downfall you are with me;

Happy times and enjoyment still you are at my side.

Thank you so much for accompanying me.

I have so much to do this coming year, now I welcome 2009 again to be with me as I go along my journey.

I open my heart again and mind for the things to happen;

Guide my way of dealing this things with courage, strength and passion.

Shower me all your blessings, love and compassion so I could be more loving and forgiving to others and to those are difficult to love.

Enlighten my wisdom and knowledge so i could come up with brilliant ideas and wise decisions in all aspects of my life. Continue to guard my heart for any negative vibes and nonsense emotions. Always strengthen and humble me. Ignite my passion of service so I could continue to help. and bless me so i could be a blessing to others.

This now I claim and believe that all things happened for a reason and I embrace life in any prespective weither bad or good, happiness or in sadness.

Lets love life for that is our own choice of doing so..

Bless my family and friends, with good health and grant what their heart desires.

Bless also the person who is not good to me, who hates me or don't like me, may you purify their intentions always.

Lastly, bless myself give me strenght in everything I do and good health as always.

Give me continue passion and love to my career.

I also pray that I can find someone who can love me as what I am for me to be completely happy.

Thank you so much for the life you gave as 2008 year ended.

Welcome 2009......

-tiwin-

A dare to cherish....

A dare to cherish... It started with a joke and bait...
Conversations, thoughts and ideas are shared;

At one point unexpectedly a man exists to dare and never
thought it was real.

Emotions....strings are not attached;
Feelings do not exists, its just a word "dare"
that matter on this reality.

A dare to kiss is not a joke,
it is something to learn from within
A good kisser to be found and discovered;
and it can be a memory to cherished forever.

It was fun to risk something in life but to the
person who can dare to live with it.

-by tiwin-

Friends farewell...

Your farewell:

Theres a lot of reasons why a person or a thing that we treasured and loved the most can't be with us anymore.

Most of the times it really hurts to hear the word goodbye, but for me, goodbye doesn't really mean an end and it doesn't end like that, in fact its the beginning of a new life ahead of us.

Its a new chapter in our lives where we could start all over again, learn from the past and move on with our lives.

I think everything just come and go... and when someone or something has to go and say goodbye to us someone or something better will come,

sometimess we don't know the reasons why they have to leave us but eventually...

we will know and realize it soon...

The stars shine... less one...

by inho

Is it worth waiting??

Essence of waiting it is distilled in the fire of patience; only those ... reality like it.

All my life, I've been waiting for my life to begin, as if somehow my life was ahead of me, and that someday I would arrive at it.

It's a choice to wait someone whom you know that it will not come.
Nevertheless, the value of waiting is measured of how patience we are in everything.

- tiwin 11.18.08

Holding hands can be a relief...

Holding hands can be a relief to a person who suffer pain;
If someone holds your hand sometimes it makes you feel better.

In spite of all the hurt and disappointment it can help lessen
the things you suppose to get over.

You can feel the comfort to ease the pain.
No matter how hard it is still the touch of your hand
can get rid the moment you are down.

Savor the time you hold a person's hand and never lose it first.
you might never know that would be first and last you hold a person's hand.

You cannot turn back the time and moment of giving someone's relief by just
"Holding a person's hand"...

-tiwin- 11.17.08

Rejection

Rejection
tiwin 10.3.08


I’m trapped to this world called “Rejection”.
Who cares?? Do I look like I care??

I know I’m not the person you are interested with
or wanted too and it never was.

I’m just the least person whom you can benefit with.
I’m just a mess; you can wipe as you wanted to;

I’m a waste; you can dump in the trash if you don’t need me.
I’m just a piece of scratch; you can throw anywhere you want.

You can push me or give me away to those in need.
I mean nothing to you still and not worthy to keep.

You ought to

You’ll be Happy now..

For the reason of pushing me away from you.
You taught me to realize that life is worth living with out you.

Even it’s hard to do but it gives me courage from the things you wanted to.
I haven’t heard any word from you but I assumed things to be that way.

So tiring to wait for your word “Stay” and its not worth waiting

coz I know I will hear nothing.

I was the one who loose the rope and I was.
Impatient as I am to describe but a loser who I became to this story.

The Blame I put on my hand don’t insists you are to be coz you are not.
This I will suffer and sacrifice for the sake of your happiness; You deserve to be.

Forgiveness will always be the key of your worth to be happy

and I do willing to suffer because of it.

You will be happy now…..

tiwin 10.3.08

"I Hated Myself as Fooled..."
tiwin 10.2.08

I’m selfish to impose my love to someone
Who doesn’t love me back.
I hated myself to feel that I loved, I missed and I cared;
B’coz the more I imposed that feeling the more I’m deeply hurting.

Being fooled with someone who I choose to love & care of
Is unfair...but it doesn’t give me the thought of quitting to love.

Shame on me for what I have done.
This is not an ordinary me as I knew myself but
Because I’m fooled, it realized me the things
Which wasn’t supposed to be;

Foolishness of me is an echo that keeps me deaf.
A bad dream that keeps me awake anytime I am asleep.
And always reminds me of what a "fool" I am.

If you try to close your eyes not to see things in the past
Still more sweet memories you will reminisce.
The only thing I can do is cry out the things
I wish to be forgotten…

Time chooses its own healingness of pain and despair
Which a man cannot afford to make it.

Never in my mind expect things to happen as I expected it to be.
The more I convince myself that I’m OK; Strong and Patient
The weaker I am in reality.

Will I ever learn you never love me?
When I love you this is I hate to remember.

To forgive is always an easy word to say I’m SORRY!!
But it’s hard to make up.
Apology accepted but doesn’t make me feel better anyway.

I’m tired of these Love or Life???
If tired of Love? It can be healed by Love.
If tired of Life? It’s a choice..
I choose to live or I better choose to Die….

Loving Someone...

Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the person we love we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many Beautiful things and simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns. Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you love but the man who loves you more.

The best lovers are those who are capable of loving from a distance, far enough to allow the other person to grow, but never too far to feel the love deep within your being to let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own HAPPINESS without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all fears, bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart.

Do not let the bitterness pare away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let you grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may have found peace in just loving someone from a distance not expecting anything in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.

There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just friendship, or the feelings he might have for u is just too far from how you love him. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.

You don't have to be bitter on love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well.

Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow: If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love. Cry, if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

"When you lose someone... and you think you were the one who loved most, between the two of you... he lost more. For someday you can love someone the way that you loved him...But he will never be loved again the way that you did"

Bearing the PAIN...

tiwin 10.1.08

It’s hard to ease the pain if you try to force it to stop.

Heavy to carry as you try to face it.

No choice but feel the pain until hurt no more.

Life is ironic and also life is unfair.. Either way..

It’s not easy to be in pain;

maybe its how I interpret the word pain is ..

It can be in a positive or negative perspective;

But still thankful to feel the pain you’ve caused.

It’s just hard for me to deal it as for now.

Let me bear the pain you’ve caused til the moment I surpass.

A Stranger

A Stranger
By: tiwin 9.20.08

Strangers at one point,
Good friends we become.

Nobody knows how our world exists;
It’s a matter of time when you
Truly came in.

A matter of fate; where the right person
At the right place & at the right time;

Nobody understands how the universe conspire us
to meet and blossom
this thing called FRIENDSHIP.

But then, it just happens, you click and the story begins.
I’m glad I’m part of your story…

A Cuss in Silence

“A Cuss in Silence”
DROP
by: tiwin 9.20.08

A cuss with full of dreams;
He paused to look back on the things
He used to do and live with.

He is an innocent bloke as you see him;
An expensive smile that hardly be bought
But full of stories as you get along with.

He can love as he wanted too
He cared to those who care of him;
He is sweeter for those who longed for the sweetness.

What made a cuss in silence?
A cuss made in silence in times of solitude and despair;
He chooses to be in silence if he thinks of his dreams & plans to aim.

He remember the things from the past
That reminds him of who he is and what he becomes now;
Facing the reality makes him accept the fact of what he wants to be.

Being what image he project
Is a way of giving people the courage to know who he is;
May or might be to the person who is sensitive enough to his personality;
A silent cuss to describe is the person who I ought to know.

He has a deep thinking of what really life is and can read person’s mind.
It is rare to find a person who has mysterious being.
He has his own story of being a silent CUSS.

Thoughts of me this day!!

"thoughts of me this day "

You can close your eyes to the things you

don't want to see but you cannot close your

heart to the things you don't want to feel....

-tiwin-

A Missing Bloke

A Missing Bloke
by tiwin
dedicated to k.l.p

I missed a bloke I had on hand;

I longed him as much as I could

I missed a bloke who took care of me

For when I am with him I can be happy as I could be.

A bloke can be loved as he wanted too;

You can loved him as no If's and doubts

for he deserved to be loved by anyone.

A bloke whom I missed and love is "YOU";

Don't question me why? what? or How?

For Loving you is no reason to explain at ALL!!

Missing you is a word and thought that strengthen me.

June '08

-tiwin-

Falling In Love

FALLING IN LOVE

From the book "Letters To My Son"

Kent Nerburn, Author

It is a mystery why we fall in love. It is a mystery how ithappens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery whysome love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails.

You can analyze this mystery and look for reasons andcauses, but you will never do anymore that take the life outof the experience. Just as life itself is more than the sum ofthe bones and muscles and electrical impulses in the body,love is more than the sum of the interests and attractionsand commonalities that two people share. And just as lifeitself is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so too, thecoming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gift thatcannot be questioned in its ways.

Sometimes, hopefully at least once in your life - the gift oflove will come to you in full flower. Take hold of it andcelebrate it in all inexpressible beauty. This is the dream weall share. More often, it will come and take hold of you,celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.

When this happen to young people, they too often try tograsp the love and hold it to them, refusing to see that it is agift that just as freely, moves away. When they fall out oflove, or the person they love feels the spirit of love leaving,they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost ratherthan accepting the gift for what it was, then moving on.

They want answers where there are no answers. Theywant to know what is wrong in them that makes the otherperson no longer love them, or try to get their love to change,thinking that if some small things were different, love wouldbloom again. They blame their circumstances and say that ifthey go far away and start a new life, their love will grow.

They try anything to give meaning to what has happened. Butthere is no meaning beyond the love itself, and until theyaccept its own mysterious ways, they live in a sea of misery.You need to know this about love, and accept it. You need totreat what it brings you with kindness.

If you find yourself inlove with someone who does not love you, be gentle withyourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn'tchoose to rest in the other person's heart.If you find yourself someone in love with you but you don'tlove him back, feel honored that love came and called at yourdoor, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do nottake advantage; do not cause pain. How you deal with loveis how you deal with yourself.

All our hearts feel the samepains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different.If you fall in love with another, and he falls in love with you,and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it nor toassess blame. Let it go. There is a reason and there is ameaning. You will know in time.

Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you. Allyou can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing,then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the personwho brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem itpoor in spirit. Give it to the world around you Iin any way you can.There is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so longwithout love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, andthey begin to look at love as something that flows to themrather than from them.

The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but astheir love cools, they revert to seeing their love as a need.They cease to be someone who generates love and insteadbecome someone who seeks love. They forget that thesecret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made togrow only by giving it away.Remember this and keep it to your heart.

Love has its time, itsown season, its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying. You canonly embrace it when it arrives and give it away when itcomes to you. But if it chooses to leave from your heart orfrom the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do. Love always has been and always will be a mystery.

BE GLAD THAT IT CAME TO LIVE FOR A MOMENT IN YOUR LIFE.

If you keep you heart open, it will come again...

Love Stories: I refuse to

I refuse to wait for you any longer. There was a time in my life when I would have saved myself for you alone. In my heart no one else would do. I belonged to no one else but you. That isn’t me anymore. My heart finally caught up with my brain and I finally saw that all of it was just nothing but fantasies. Dreams that only I wanted. There was no hope left for us. As each day passed, it became clearer to me that it was never meant to be. We were never meant to be.

I refuse to live in the past. What we shared lives in the past, it doesn’t control me any longer. Don’t get me wrong, I will forever treasure it but I won’t let it hold me back. I won’t let it ruin who I was and who I am now. For a time, I almost forgot who I was without you. I’ll never let that happen again. I won’t ever lose myself again.

I refuse to fight anymore. For several months now, I’ve been fighting. I’ve been fighting for our friendship and for us. However, no matter what I do, I seem to be losing. Whenever I feel as if I’m going to buckle down because of the pressure, the thought that somehow maybe you are fighting for us too kept me going. But months have passed, I haven’t heard from you. Somehow I finally realized that I was the only one fighting for us. I was doing everything I could possibly can for someone who was and never will be mine.

I refuse to believe that you didn’t love me. Somehow, someway, I know that I have a place in your heart. You may not have been able to love me the way I wanted you to love me but I know that even for just a second, you really did love me.

I refuse to lose hope. It may not be you. It may take me forever to find him, but I will. Tears have been streaming down my cheeks for too long but not anymore. I have learned so many things from all this. Things that I felt should have been taught to me some other less painful way but somehow I don’t regret it. It made me stronger. It made me look inside myself and really see who I really am and not who I thought I was. Hope kept me going. The hope for better things to come, the same hope that one day I will finally be over you.

Not your ordinary love story...

Not your ordinary love story...
Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Love Struck! This is not your typical story!

This is dedicated to you.

Getting to know you

You will hate me for doing this and I could never say this in front of you so I wrote it down.

I really liked you, your smart, funny, easy going, submissive and assertive in the right way, very beautiful and

a very responsible person, Never in my life have I met someone like you and never in my life have I cared for

someone like this, I know I’m still young and still got lots of things to learn in this world, lots of people to meet

but I have no regrets for trying my very best to make you believe I really care. I now know this is not just

something in my mind but also in my heart. I am willing to bet all my all to make this work. I know we hardly

knew each other and I am willing to know more on who you are if you give me a chance.

I started off in the wrong side and I wish to make it right.

Whatever your decision may be I’ll respect it and I wish to stay close to your heart or as your best friend.

Thanks for giving me this time.

"Dili sayop ang ma amang sa atubangan sa babae nga imong g ka ibgan…" –LJV

Risking it all

I thought about this for one night, my heart and my mind made a decision to trust you 100 percent. Gambling

may not be good but in order to find the right one is to bet, hope and pray that you’ll win.

Self Sacrifice

The self sacrifices I made where not meant to be paid. Knowing your safe, seeing you smile and knowing you

love me is already priceless to me. I trust you, you trust me.

I love you and you love me.

Angles of Me

"My Corner"

An achievement whom I don't expect be recognized.

My dedication in work that no one compares.

My passion, determination and positive towards work

made me being me that inspires everyone to be I am.

Hard working as describe.

It is being what I am as I want to be that lead me to this recognition

Thanks for myself for being One.

I dreamed , I soar;

I believe, I hold on;

I survive and I'm

Absolutely human to feel the pain.

I don't know what life brings me

But I am certain that i can be

What GOD wants me to be...

"Ode to Unfulfilled Longing"

I choose to love you in silence for in my silence

I find no rejection.

I choose to love you in my loneliness for in my

loneliness no one owns you but I.

I choose to admire you from a distance coz distance

shield us both from pain.

I choose to imprison you in my thoughts for in my

thoughts I gave you freedom

I choose to kiss you in the wind coz the wind is more

gentle than my lips.

I choose to touch you in my dreams for in my

dreams there is no end.

-tiwin-

How many times I risk for Love But I Failed!!!

Love is such a nice feeling and even Undescribable at times.
I, myself, had wonderful and not so good experiences about love and loving.

I had my share of pain and joy. but i'm thankful that i am still capable of loving and being loved.

Love transforms and love cures; but sometimes, love builds deadly traps and
can end up destroying a person who had resolved to give him or herself completely.

What is this complex feeling which, deep down, is the only reason we continue to live, struggle and improve.

It would be irresponsible of me to attempt to define it, because i,
along with every other human being, can only feel it.

But i learned that this feeling is present in the small things,
and manifests itself in the most insignificant of our actions. it is therefore necessary to keep love always in mind, regardless of whether or not we take action.

Love requires creativity and when none of this is possible, when all that remains is loneliness and
when loneliness seems to crush all beauty, the only way to resist is to remain open.

Do I really deserved to loved?? or I might not deserving to be loved at all.

y.a -tiwin-